Well, I think I’m going to put a period at the end of this long sentence. It has been quite a ride to say the least. The girls, Ariella and Raquel, are doing great. Of course, you never know how hard it will be to be a parent until you know. People tell you it’s rough, people tell you your life will never be the same. There is just no way, however, to know the truth of those words until you’ve lived it.
Night wakings, sleep deprivation, crying, colic, rocking until your back aches, wishing for just an hour, one hour to yourself, and then realizing what they mean by your life will never be your own again. And then you sit, in a dimly lit room in the middle of winter, looking out at the window of the nursery, at the overcast sky at the break of dawn, rocking your baby snuggled up in your arms, and you realize that there is nothing else that you’d rather be doing. And the winter morning somehow doesn’t seem as cold and dark as it used to. You are warmed by the love that has grown inside you. And then you realize, you will never be the same either. And that’s a good thing.
Thank you all for your support along this journey, which has not ended, but simply taken a new turn.
I plan to keep this blog as is and let it stand as a beacon of hope for those of you out there who still suffer. When I get time, I intend to start a new blog called “Finding a New Gear: Motherhood after Infertility”. So stay tuned.
Beautiful names, beautiful girls!
Posted by: Jenn | Friday, December 09, 2005 at 07:26 PM
Looking forward to the new excitement!
Posted by: Erin | Friday, December 09, 2005 at 10:03 PM
I'm tearing up, right now. You HAVE given me hope. Congratulations again on those beautiful little babies...
Posted by: Lynnette | Sunday, December 11, 2005 at 08:39 PM
I'm so pleased that everything is still going so well. I do miss hearing from you, I look forward to your new blog. Let me know when it appears!
Posted by: thalia | Monday, December 12, 2005 at 04:19 PM
Oh and the babies are really lovely!
Posted by: thalia | Monday, December 12, 2005 at 04:20 PM
Congratulations and welcome to the club!
Posted by: Jodi | Monday, December 12, 2005 at 05:48 PM
I am so glad you updated and look forward to your new journal. What you are experiencing is so wonderful.
Posted by: Kim | Monday, December 12, 2005 at 07:50 PM
Looking forward to the new blog.
Lovely babies. You are so lucky.
Take care.
Posted by: chris | Sunday, December 18, 2005 at 09:43 AM
Your girls are adorable! : ) I can't wait till the new blog!
Posted by: Irina | Monday, December 19, 2005 at 09:32 AM
Your babies are so precious. Congratulations!
Can't wait to hear more, so keep us posted for the next chapter of your life. Blessing for your lovely family!
Posted by: Sol | Monday, December 19, 2005 at 01:36 PM
so very very happy for you. and the long silence was worth the wait. enjoy this special time.
:)
Posted by: ann | Thursday, December 22, 2005 at 08:31 PM
The girls are simply gorgeous. It was soooo very nice hearing from y ou and I'm totally looking forward to the new blog.
Posted by: millie | Wednesday, May 24, 2006 at 01:07 PM
Congratulations to your gorgeous little girls. They look sweet and happy and lovely. Hope the darling girls keep well.
Posted by: Kang | Friday, July 28, 2006 at 08:01 PM
Thank you for keeping this blog up. As I read it now, years later, tears are streaming down my face. I long to be you. My DE transfer is in two weeks from now and I don't know if it's all the meds I'm on or all the years of waiting, but this post really has made a difference this morning. Thank you.
Posted by: Lisa DG | Friday, July 31, 2009 at 09:16 AM